Latest Entries »

Born connected to my mother with a cord,

Cut off from what I thought was life, what I needed to survive.

As I grew, I tried to connect again and again, but each time I found it less fulfilling.

Where could I find a connection that would take these blues away, or touch the untouchable place.

I see a smile on her face, maybe what she found can replace…whatever it is I’m missing

No? Not a woman, nor a man? How about money, or being grand? It’s all so sadly temporary

How dare this man not have what I need…and I’m spending money till I bleed

Where can I place this cord, that doesn’t drain others dry and eventually leave me alone to cry

Not one physical thing puts out enough energy to support my spiritual needs

I am telling you the truth, although my physical cord was cut long time ago

I still feel a spiritual need to connect… connect to real love, passion, family

Once I found the true Lord of Lords and King of Kings, Jesus Christ (Yeshua), I found I could never drain Him dry

It explained why no one could ever be the sole source to help me, satisfy me, educate me, entertain me, understand me….

So if you are one of the “few” that my Lord has talked about….make the connection to Christ alone

Kimya S-J


You listen to someone speak or you watch the way they handle a situation and you just know that’s someone you would like to know better.  When you are trying to keep a friendship going, it’s like trying to keep a fire from going out on a camp out.  You know that fire is very useful. It can keep trouble away and provide warmth from the cold.  That is how a good connection is. These are usually unique people that are helpful when you need to get things done. They can help you stay encouraged so your projects don’t come to a stand-still. You shouldn’t let them out of your life easily.

The enemy knows that if you have jelly and they have bread you might make a sandwich, and we can’t have that now can we.  A lot of times he uses separation from common places, the absence of the people you had in common, or time itself to make things awkward.  Send a message, or a card. Complement them on what you know they do well. Encourage them on things that are not going as well as they would like.

The Word of God says that ‘a friend is always loyal and a brother is born to help in time of need’. (proverbs 17:17) It also tells us that there are friends that stick closer than brothers. (proverbs 18:24b) Naomi of the Bible found this to be true. (The book of Ruth) Ruth found Naomi to be one of the unique people you meet in life that you don’t let situations separate you from.  She kept her family bond when there was no reason to.  God had put a connection between them and Ruth didn’t take it lightly.  Our connections with other people are not by accident, it’s a set up.  Whether it’s good or bad, it is a set up.  We use the Word of God to tell the difference.  The divine connection between Ruth and Naomi would put Ruth in the position to be the grandmother of King David.  Her tender heart and passion was passed down to her grandson and he went on to become a man after God’s own heart.

I read this story and realize that we should put more effort into maintaining good connection and put more effort in ending bad ones.  Separate ourselves from people who don’t encourage us but have low expectations of us. Separate ourselves from people who invite trouble, provide no warmth when you’re cold and alone, and make you feel like you’re the only one bringing the wood to keep the fire going.

(Written to my brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus)

Love Kim S-J

Some people go through their day like they are taking a multiple choice quiz.  I know, it used to be that way for me. I’m in traffic and I’m trying to leave space between me and the car in front of me. I don’t want a sudden stop to put me in his or her trunk.  The car in the other lane sees it as an opportunity to change lanes without a signal….really.  Do I, A) Vent with foul words and hand gestures so that the person in the other car knows they should never try that again with me.  B)  Have a Christian melt down.  Act as if some unseen hand is calming me down by swaying me back and forth, which causes me to moan and quote scriptures against the demon in the car changing lanes. Or C) Thank God there was no accident and pray for safety and discernment for me and the other drivers.  You know which one it the right one.  Pray for me cause I’m stuck between b and c.

Trying to figure out how to react in situations is the wrong response when situations rise throughout life.  This will put you in a pattern of waiting to see what will happen next and then calculating what the right response should be. This is why meditating on the Word of God is so important.  The Word tells you how to BE.  The Word shows you how to get the world and it’s situations to respond to you (your prayers and the works you establish through Christ Jesus).

Paul and Silas were in Philippi preaching about Jesus when they were arrested. (Acts 16:16-34) While they were in jail they prayed and sang hymns, while the other prisoners listened. This was their reaction to being beaten and thrown in jail. Their reaction wasn’t, ‘Lord why did you let this happen to us. Don’t you see we are doing this for you.’  They kept on doing weird things like this. Later on in the night they started praying and a earthquake shook the prison so hard the chains broke off the prisoners.  Things were happening all around Paul and Silas but they didn’t react to the situations because nothing had changed for them.  They were still on Kingdom business.  They were still on a mission, saving souls.  It was as if they were saying, ‘Anyway, back to what we were saying’.  Their consistency caused the jailer to see the truth of the situation.  Paul and Silas had always been free, delivered, and protected.  This is what the word saved means. (Greek word – Sozo= whole) The jailer realized that his keys couldn’t really bind or loose anyone who was truly free.  You know there are people who try and dress and act the part and there are people who are the real thing. The jailer saw that Paul and Silas were the real thing.  He asked them what he needed to do to be saved.

When the enemy brings about a situation to get you to react, just keep being who you are, a child of God.  Don’t be distracted from our Kings business by racism, religion, politics, doctrine, music, television, traffic  ect…  Tell the enemy, “No, you freak out.  You Move.”

(Written to my brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus) Matt 16:25

Love Kim S-J

Learn Love


You may think it comes naturally but it doesn’t.  What human beings naturally do is ‘measure’. We measure our time, one another, education, ourselves and many other things.  Everyone wants to believe that they love correctly.  We even measure when we’ve loved enough and it’s time to stop.

God shows us His nature, Love, all through the old-testament (Gen 28:15).  You see the needle and the thread more plainly in the new-testament (John 3:16).  So many times, Jesus the Christ, confronted those who measured their love and others by good deeds or status.  The truth is whether it is correction or a holy kiss, it should be like moving from one form of love to another and you can only accomplish this by the Holy Spirit.  (Luke 4:18) We have to learn to ‘fall back’ in the arms of God everyday or we will keep feeling the need to draw our knife, like Peter did when he felt threatened in the garden with Jesus.

The human gets in the way.  What you’ve been through, how someone looked at you, the measure of how many times they did this to you will get in the way.  You can’t teach, preach, prophesy or greet anyone without God’s love that says, ‘they have a different past, they don’t understand, or this is how they were taught’.  This is not okay to the human being, but to God these are his babies and He’s determined to teach them. You’re His baby and He is determined to teach you.

I speak to a lot of people.  You can hear the Lord take control.  The things I want to say and the point I want to make, doesn’t make it pass my lips (thank God right).  It only happens because I discovered that the reaction or the point I thought was so important doesn’t accomplish what I thought it would.  His ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts.  If we trust God enough to fall back in His arms, everything will turn out right.

It is a command because it is impossible to carry out God’s instructions without it. The Love of God insures that your correction never goes too far.  What you equip others to do isn’t too much. It’s the buffer to make sure you don’t harm others and you are not too hard on yourself.

I love Shawn McDonald’s song, ‘Simply Nothing’.  There chorus says “What are you man, if you do not learn love”.  I believe this is what Paul was trying to get us to understand. (1 Cor 13)  All the dreams and aspirations you may have for yourself will come to nothing if you don’t “learn love”.

(Written to the Christian family) Romans 13:10 / 1 John 4:7 & 12

Love Kim S-J

“Go with God and expect great things.” My pastor says this at the close of each Sunday service.  When I read the story of the cripple man in Acts 3:1-10, I could see Peter saying that to the man in need of a miracle.  The cripple man was expecting money to help him with his financial needs because he couldn’t work…..because he was crippled.  What a blessing the money was to the man and the people who gave it to him. But if we’re not careful, the dependence or faith in the money, will rob you of your expectation, which builds up your faith, and your resistance to the enemies prophecies over your life. –Hush Money,  You can get to the point where you expect help to come in the form of money. The cripple man was told to look at Peter and John, and he did, (Act 3:5) expecting money.

Peter told the man that he didn’t have any silver or gold but what he did  have was access to the temple, and access to Jesus.  (This is difficult on both sides to do.) We must strive to believe that we have something to offer others, other than silver and gold, and other people have something to offer us, other than silver and gold.

At the name of Jesus Christ, a quickening began to take place in the cripple man’s thoughts, emotions and his physical body, before the man was given the command to rise and walk.  In the army, there is a command that prepares you to act on a command.  It’s like the word “ready”, in “ready set, go”.  At the name of Jesus, a connection is made between the words that are being spoken and the words that you have stored in your heart.  The activation is made. Code acknowledged, faith recognized, commence transformation.  Okay, sorry, I had a flashback. It was God’s timing and He helps our unbelief.  (Word to Word, faith to faith).   “Rise up and walk”, Peter says to the cripple man.  I read this as, “I know who you are. Do you know who I am and who I am to you? Then acknowledge it by getting up and doing what you couldn’t do before.”

Peter helped the man to do what he told him to do, just like Jesus does.  He doesn’t tell you to do anything he doesn’t plan on helping you with.  The man felt the strength come into his feet and ankle bones.  (The first physical sign that healing had taken place)

My favorite part of this testimony is when the writer begins to call the man, the lame man that was healed.  Whatever his name was, he was different now. His faith in other things must have shot through the roof.  He became immune to words like, never, 99%, nothing we can do, learn to live with it, that’s just the way it is, take this for the rest of your life, ect.

Don’t go through life never knowing what it feels like to leap like no one is watching, or what is like to enter a place that most don’t have access to.

When you have lost your expectation for healing or anything else, or you have built more of a case to receive your check than to get what the enemy has stolen from you,…It’s hush money. It’s stealing away your expectations, killing your spiritual immune system, faith and the abundant life that was promised to you.

I know why a lame man leaps. –SMILE

Love ya, (written to the Christian family)

Kim S-J

The story of the Samaritan woman is pretty well known, I suppose.  But to jump right to the point, Jesus was waiting for food and apparently, He wouldn’t have minded a drink of water as well. (No pun intended, although it did make me smile) This story is one of the ones I use to explain the two things going on with a person at one time. You can almost see Jesus in his flesh thinking, “I hope those guys hurry up cause, I’m hungry. Hey lady, will you give me some water?  And now again in his Spirit saying, “Thank you Father, I am full by your words and refreshed by your Spirit. I must share what I have partaken of with this Samaritan woman.” (This is definitely one of the reasons the disciples sounded confused in some parts of scripture.) When the disciples come back with the food, they present it to Jesus and He says out of his Spirit, “I have meat that you know not of.” I suppose, shortly after, He got a drink of water and ate the sandwich too.

Do you understand that you can be physically full of food and spiritually lacking nutrients? You can drink a bottle of water and your spirit is thirsty. You can have all your bills paid and be bankrupt in spirit.  How much worse is it to be hungry from the inside out or without the proper currency physically and spiritually. Rich men jump off buildings and poor men laugh while eating buttered bread.

I had a busy couple of weeks. I would promise to do my worship and study time later in the day and that wouldn’t happen. Then the week goes by. The end of the week I tired, frustrated, definitely not centered on Christ. I realized I can’t afford not to read and pray. It’s a bridge that every true Christian crosses.

You can’t put off spiritual meat and living water. You’ll starve and bring destruction to your soul. Even if you’re not one who gets hungry, you will eventually say, “I should eat something.” It should be the same with your life with God. You can’t get much done on an empty spirit, but when it’s full you can share.

Written to the Christian family   John 4:1-42

Love ya

Kim S-J


Stories are told about the person that goes farther than they were expected to. In the military, it usually means someone did something that saved lives. I read scripture like a soldier, most times, and I see the Lord calling the disciples to enlist with Him. He trains them to live like him and tells them their mission will be recruiting other disciples.  Three disciples are invited to come closer, to see Jesus without his uniform. The transfiguration spoken of in Matthew 17:1-9. It wasn’t revealed to others until later. It was just for them. And the privileged three, James, John, and Peter, went on to save many lives. The words that they were inspired by God to write, were written with a vantage point that few have ever seen.

I hear people tell stories from a pilots perspective or a medic’s perspective. I want to be one of the people that go beyond the call of duty. I want to be picked to come close and change my perspective. I know it will save lives just as these great soldiers of Christ’s vantage point, has saved mine.

Memorial Day—It’s for the soldier in Christ as well. For the one who wakes up on alert, pours out tears, declares the laws of God against the enemy. The one who lives by word…….and have died by it.

For those who don’t know what I’m talking about, It’s because you don’t know what I’m talking about. I pray one day you will.

Love ya

5/29/12 Status (Esther 4-7) (2 Tim 3:16-17)

I like to play the sims, okay I love to play the sims. I enjoy it because I get to create a simulated person right down to their facial features and characteristics. I have a pretty good idea how they are going to react in certain situations. I try to get their good qualities to over ride the bad, but it’s a good thing I’m not God. Sometimes I forget about a character and something bad happens to them. Even worse, one of them will get on my nerves and I “get them taken care of”.

The great “I Am” is God and I am not. He created us in detail, our looks and the combination of our characteristics. He knows how we will react in situations. I’m saying our looks and our qualities that we use to become who we are come from God. He expects us to use our status in life with the people of God in mind. Your gifts, talents, and looks come to you without even committing your life to God, but you’ll never perform your masterpiece without a relationship with Him. He can tell you just how to use it so you feel more than satisfied, more like you’re fulfilling your purpose in life.

How many times did Esther hear how pretty she was. How many hearts she must of melted. She could’ve spilled milk all over the king and it would have been alright. Don’t think for once that her looks were some lucky combination on her father’s side. God molded her for a purpose. He made her like jewelry. He used her looks to open the king’s ears. (It seems his eyes were working better than his ears)

Use who you are or your position in life to the glory of God.  Let the Lord show you how to use the gifts He has given you. Move past the compliments of mere men to the praises that only God can give you.

More than satisfied

Kim S-J

5/27/2012 Unimportant Beginnings


The story of Jesus’s birth has told many times. So many times in fact, that I sigh when someone is about to tell it again or if the Lord tells me read it again. By now I know that If I listen with an expectant heart, I will receive a life changing treasure.  This time was no different. The key is to take it personal, knowing that it is not ment to offend or hurt you, but mold you.

Luke’s telling of Jesus’s birth is found in Luke 2:1-20. If you let it soak in , where He was born, what He was wrapped in, where He had to sleep. You know you’re looking at humble beginnings. Don’t forget the shepherds. Inviting shepherds doesn’t really move you up in the who’s who book.

Where you were born, what cheap blanket you wrap yourself  in and that mitch-match bed set you sleep on is not how you measure your worth or importants. (I might add that anyone who does measure you according to these things,…well you know what you should do with that relationship.) What matters is what was prophesied about you.  “And she or he will be”…. The Lord has planned it before your birth. ( Jeremiah 1:5 /29:11)

You can appreciate the fact that Jesus didn’t grow up, looking at his unimportant beginnings, and then become a victim of low expectations. Use your God-given gifts to help or inspire others, and “expect great things” as my pastor always says.

Love ya

Kim S-J

Movie 2: Unordered Steps

(Written to fellow followers of the Christ, Jesus)

The only thing worse than being directly connected to wicked activity, is thinking that you are not connected and you are. The Lord warns us about following traditions and things that appear to put us on a path of knowledge, or wisdom. God has to be our source or we will find ourselves intertwined in iniquity and we won’t be aware of it.  (Psalm 106:35)

When you come across someone who is willingly serving fallen spirits, we should remember that the Lord is still untying us from iniquities in our past. It may not seem as awful to us as willingly surrendering to fallen spirits, but there are lies that must be uncovered in prayer and guidance in each of our lives. (Phil 2: 12b)  If we remember that we were born with these kinds of ties, until the Lord delivered us, then we can have the love and affection that it takes to collectively pray for and witness to those who are sent in our paths. Our relationship with our Lord will lead us on how to respond as we are lead by the Spirit of God alone. (John 16:13)

When I made movie two of the ‘Master Slave series’, I was reflecting on someone who talked with Christians often and admired their freedom. He talked about Christian being so free, they were spoiled. They decide when they would obey their God. His family was tied to a long line of …demons, oaths, and defilement on all levels. You know the things we don’t really want to run into.  I felt like Alice in Wonderland, except someone pushed me down the hole, and I didn’t want to sip, eat, or touch anything. Although he admitted to having an undercurrent of great fear, he had a real respect for the supernatural beings. ( 1 John 4:18)  As a result he was more disciplined, and because of his discipline he was rewarded with things most Christians only dream about. Somehow, he saw himself as better than those who embraced the “full” evil in the family. He made rules that didn’t seem so wicked. He didn’t want to appear so different to the outside world, but the standard he set was still twisted. He saw it as “moving closer to something better”.  A mild example would be, instead of many wives, the men that he was in charge of, would have one wife and “only” two concubines.  A little leaven still leavens the whole lump. (1 Cor 5:6)

The Christians in this man’s life were looking at what he had and figured Jesus would be a hard sell.  (Rev 3:17)  He didn’t seem to need power and favor, so no one witnessed to him much. It’s hard to know what to say if you don’t focus on the future. Christians were just as short sighted as he was. In man’s time, and in this realm, he seemed to have it all. But the Lord tells us to be farsighted, have patients and look at His watch (Rev 3:10 & 2Cor 6:4). I was more concerned for the Christians who didn’t know what to say. A lesson from David, soothe the troubled spirit with music, hoping the words will penetrate the stony heart.

This man would have odd conversations about power and territory, with the men in his family. His father would assign him to do odd and foul things.  Women would fight over rank and power. No one spoke of falling in love, raising children, or a real good friendship. Things like that were missing from his story.

One day the man admitted to being in love, at least his version of being in love.  But instead of being excited, he was afraid.  He was doing everything he could not to anger the fallen spirits or give them a reason to use it against him. He began to communicate less with “Christian” friends. (When I say Christian friends, I’m talking about the people who say they are Christians if you ask them flat out, but they can live under the radar because it’s not intertwined in their life.  He didn’t speak to Christians he couldn’t play tug-of-war with.)  In his mind, he was protecting them.  He was being drawn to the cemetery to live amongst the tombs, away from love ones. (Mark 5:2-3)

The last straw for this man was thinking about how his children would live.  The fork in the road or the opportunity for a decision had been presented.

This man became a follower of Christ. A bold and powerful witness for Jesus Christ came to him with boldness and more power in his right eye than he had experience his whole life. You see the witness was possessed by love.  (Mark 12:33) The witnessed loved the man at first sight, just as God so loved the world that he gave his only son. The witness knew that the man was one of those “whosever’s”, and if he believed that the son of God was named Jesus and His sacrifice and blood would cleanse his defilement.  (John 3:16)  The witness was on a rescue mission. He was so farsighted; it was as if he was sent from the future. (Jude 1: 23)

This man gave his life to Jesus and lost everything, but while he was in the desert, he built a temple. God dwelt there.  He feared no evil, because of the protection and wisdom of God’s word.  (Jer 15:19-20)  He discovered the gift of the Lord that the fallen spirits couldn’t take away, given to him at birth.  (Romans 11: 29)  He used his gift and the gifts of the Spirit of God and the Lord rewarded his faithfulness and devotion.  Once again, he is responsible for people. He educates people, so that they do not mix righteousness with wickedness.  He is one of God’s beloved sons, and now the Lord is pleased with him.  The witness remained his mentor and brother of accountability.  (Oh yea, he’s rich again, in case someone was wondering.)

This man is who I build my story board from. It’s in the form of movie clips.  Because I know the whole story, it’s interesting to me.  I do them for fun only.  I made them a long time ago, so I tried to freshen them up a bit.  Please feel free to crack up, I do.

This man considered himself to be a master. I thought to myself, “You are the master of slaves, the ultimate slave to this world.” The title of the 21 clips series, became ‘the master salves’, (Romans 6:19).  So the character in most of the movie series is based off of “this man”.  In the clips, the man is named Master Sha-mahad Taskmaster. I focused on 4 fallen spirits that connected to his family. They influence the people in their area with their wealth and exciting ways.

I hope you glance through the clips until you get to the more recent clips. Better yet look at the more recent clips and maybe you’ll want to know what happened before. Either way, I will keep posting about the characters in the clips, because their testimonies changed my life.

Good material that goes well with this blog:

movie: The List (

   Movie:  Megiddo: The Omega Code 1 & 2 (TBN Production, GOODTIMES, Entertainment)

Documentary: Megiddo: The March to Armageddon (

Teaching:  The Return of the Ancient Spirits (

Kim s-j

Master Sha-Mahad TaskMaster

The Master Salve Series

(These notes are meant to go along with the little movie clips I like to make. They are characters based off of me and people who have shared their testimonies with me. No real names or likenesses of course. I hope the clips are entertaining and the scriptures help you apply God’s Word, to everyday life.)

%d bloggers like this: